Monday, June 25, 2007

Smote - The Bottom of a Glass

Soo... yeah... its been a while... and well... some things have changed, as well they should, from time to time. Lately, I've had the opportunity to enjoy the process of getting to know my brain. I've delved deeply into the oh so interesting world of sober self analysis. It's a blast.

My goal is to be as aware and present as possible for every moment in my life. I'm accomplishing this through a challenging cocktail of sobriety (no drugs or alcohol), daily yoga, and meditation. The most challenging part of all of this is hanging out with myself all the time. When I'm chillin' by my self my brain tends to run around poking it's nose in all my bizness. It's like spending a lot of time with a close -talker or with a person who has no sense of personal space... something is just a little over aggressive and discomforting. I'm told that the yoga and meditation will start to teach my mind some boundaries, that disciplining it will become effortless with time.

When my sister an I were growing up my mom would occasionally get fed up with our constant questions. "How do I...?" "where is the ...?" and eventually she would distract and enable us by saying "I don't know, what would you do if I wasn't here?"

So now, after years of being an absentee parent to my precocious mind... I've got to teach it about boundaries, and about hot burners and that sometimes mom needs some quiet time. Goodness.

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